What You REALLY Need To Hear

What You REALLY Need To Hear

 

What you  REALLY need to hear is that it will be okay.

What you REALLY need to hear is to be positive.

What you REALLY need to hear is that it is NOT the end of the world.

What you REALLY need to hear is that we will get through this, TOGETHER!

 

What you DON’T need to hear.

What you DON’T need to hear right now is more news.

What you DON’T need to hear is that more shelves are empty

What you DON’T need to hear is that more people are infected or that more people have died.

 

 

Do yourself a favor…

Turn off the news.

Log off social media.

Turn on some music.

Go outside and get some fresh air.

Do something different.

Learn something different

 

Right now the world is creating a whole new world.

Maybe now is the perfect time for you to create a whole new you?

What have you always wanted to do but never had to time? Read a book cover to cover? Camp in your home? Make a fort? Learn a new skill? What else? Do that. Unless it is traveling, not much is stopping you but yourself. So much is free out there, you can teach yourself so many new and great wonderful things. You can go to a museum, online. You can listen to a concert, online. You can meditate or do yoga, online.

The universe is telling us itis time to slow down.

The world is changing.

AS a cancer patient, let me explain something to you… There is no such thing as “going back to normal.” there is no normal. There is what you will hear is called a “New Normal” but it still is not normal. Normal is a setting on a washing machine.

We are evolving.

It is time for you to evolve to.

That may not be what you wanted to hear, but I know in my hear it is what you NEEDED to hear.

Trisha Trixie

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Are You Choosing Love at This Moment?

 

Love will keep us together if we remember to exercise it. Choose Love.

In the next few days, weeks and maybe longer we will all be faced with decisions in our lives that will affect others. Some immediately and some long term. I ask you when you are making those decisions before you act on them, think about those choices. I ask you, no I implore you, to choose love.

Before you stockpile for your family only, ask yourself, “Am I choosing Love at this moment?”

Before you go out instead of social distancing, ask yourself, “Am I choosing Love at this moment?”

Before you go to work instead of working from home ask yourself, “Am I choosing Love at this moment?” 

You may think I am being overly dramatic in my words and maybe to you, a healthy, uncompromised person, maybe I am.

But I am a two-time cancer fighter and barely out of my second bout with it. I now have Hashimoto’s autoimmune disease. If I got sick, it would be dire. There are others like me or who are older, have illnesses like mine or worse. We are not as healthy as you, and you may be putting us at risk.

I am writing this hoping it is a matter of “I didn’t think about it that way.” Instead of a matter of “I could care less.”

All I am asking is that you stop and think about your actions, your words, your behavior.

We have the capability to get through this on one condition…if we do it together.

Not just the United States, I mean the World!

We the WORLD can get through this together!

I truly believe we can accomplish that through love.

Love for ourselves AND love for our fellow man.

Be a good human.

Be kind.

Choose Love.

~XoXo Trisha Trixie

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Don’t Be a Cold Turkey Friend

If my title intrigued you I hope you will stay to read the rest because this subject has been weighing on me for quite some time. I wasn’t even sure which blog to write it on since I have this blog that reaches a larger audience and my personal blog that is more of my close-knit friends, though it is open to the public.

Let backtrack a bit for those who don’t know my recent journey.

In recent years I have had cancer, not once, but twice. When I first found out I had cancer, most of my friends and some of my family rallied around me to be supportive. I went into remission for a year and then sadly my cancer came back with a vengeance. The second time it came around, I was more involved in Toastmasters and more friends rallied around, more family rallied and more letters and support showed. This time we figured out how to video chat, how to be a better support to me and help me with my needs.

Both times, once I was well, friends went dark, the family fell off the face of the earth and I was left in the dark cold turkey.

I am a strong, resilient person and I know I should take it as a compliment that people feel like once I am well that I can handle things on my own.

The thing is, what they don’t realize is how hard it is to move forward after you have had all that support to be left with no support.

  • No more video chats
  • No more calls
  • The letters slow down or come to halt
  • The care packages stop
  • The check-ins to see how you are don’t happen
  • The soft way people talk to you stops
  • The compassion seems to have left the building

Even the strongest person has a hard time recovering after a trauma like cancer and when all the compassionate caring stops, it is like going through withdrawals.

If you have followed my blog for a while or you know me, you know I am going to be upfront and honest about how I feel.

Vulnerable and all.

I feel like I am having to quit “attention” from others’ care and love, cold turkey.

Since last fall when I was told I was cancer-free and the tests were good, I have been severely depressed and struggling.

Imagine a person suffering from an addiction to a drug and then they are removed from it cold turkey with nothing.

My drug, however, was compassion from others. That compassion was a swarming form of attention and to be honest, not having it, is hard. I miss it.

Deep down in my heart, I know my friends care and love me. The “addict” per se in me, however, is saying, I don’t matter anymore and I only mattered when it was life-threatening. I know in reality that it is just negative self-talk and untrue.

I am talking to my therapist to refill that void with other things again.

  • Doing service for others
  • Doing good for others
  • Remembering my purpose and meaning in this life and fulfilling that purpose
  • Getting back involved in Toastmasters
  • Developing a workout routine
  • Going for walks on a regular basis
  • Meeting with friends or calling friends
  • Reaching out to family
  • Scheduling more travel and road trips
  • Finding retreats or getaways I might be interested in

While I know it’s on me to lift myself out of this depression and being who I am, I will.

I wanted to write this for those of you who might be currently supporting or befriending someone who is going through Cancer or any other severe illness right now or who might have a friend who just went into remission.

If things are still looking grim you are probably still there for them, helping them out, being support and I am sure they are thankful for that and I am thankful to you for being there for me and thankful to my friends who were there for me.

If you want to know how to best support your friends while they are going from “I had cancer or this life-threatening illness” to “I survived and I am going to make it”…

Here are some key ways to support them AFTER they are well so you don’t put them into a state of Cold Turkey shock like I am going through:

  • Text them every now and then to let them know you still care and are happy they are well
  • Send them a card that shows that little bit of extra effort that you cared enough to write something and put a stamp on it.
  • Call them if you can. If you were able to make the time before, try to make the time again, even if it’s not as much.
  • Schedule a visit with them or an outing together. They are finally well and able to get out of the house. Go have fun with them

Remember that even though they are well, they might still be scared about their illness returning and still need your friendship. Also, the people you may think are the strongest are probably the ones who are not ones to burden others with their problems, so they won’t tell you when they need you, or are sad or are depressed.

Robin Williams surprised the nation by taking his life.

Kate Spade’s father said he spoke to her earlier in the day and she was planning a trip.

You just never know.

Don’t stop showing your friends you care, especially those who have gone through some pretty major things in their life, like trauma or illness.

Those are the ones who really need you the most.

When you go cold-turkey on them, it is like quitting the hardest drug they ever had to quit because whether you realize or not, your friendship means more to them than you could possibly imagine.

You don’t have to be there 100%, just don’t go from 100% to 0% in a day.

~XoXo Trisha Trixie

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Trixie Tuesday: In The Center of The Fire

It doesn’t interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it. I want to know if you can stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.~Oriah Mountain Dreamer

I have been through many fires. Metaphorical fires, not literal but they were hot still the same. Many men in my life were unable to withstand the flames. Many friends in my life are no longer my friends because my flames were too hot for them and they felt singed by the heat. I find that many times in my life, other humans are not able to withstand the heat and fires of my life.

I used to be told it was me. I was the common denominator so it was my fault. I have learned through the years that some people endure more trauma than others. That is just life. It is not one’s fault. It just is.

As I have dealt with hotter fires in my life, so to speak, fires, like Cancer, twice, side effects of all the chemotherapy I did and now Hashimoto’s, I am finding more and more people who are able to stand near the fire at least.

Some people never have fires they have to put out. I used to be envious of them. Until I realized they were unable to grow. They did not know how to handle struggle when it came along. They had not built a stronger character.

While these things in my life have been excruciatingly hard, they have shaped me, molded me and made me the person I am today.

On my personal blog, I share some frustrations I had with my spouse. We all have them. No marriage is perfect. In meditating and looking over things though I realized something today…

He has stood in the fire and not shrank.

He has sat with me in pain and not tried to fix it.

He has dealt with nothing but putting out fires since we got married.

And he is still here.

It is rare to find a person who can do that.

I am ever thankful for that. Publicly and eternally I wanted to say that.

Even more than that, I want to share with those of you who also have had fires in your life. Maybe you have had your fair share of them. Maybe you have only had a few. Maybe you could write a book about it and no one will believe you. Maybe you have only had one.

Whether your fires have been one or many, I want to assure you something no one told me…

It is NOT your fault.

Just because you are the common denominator does not always mean you are the cause. It does not mean that you are always the reason the fires start. You may be the one always having to put them out and that’s all that others see. You may be the one always in the middle of the fire, but that doesn’t mean you started it.

I want you to know that and I want you to understand I know where you are coming from. I am tired of getting blamed for my fires. I’m sure you are too!

I am not saying there are not people who need to take ownership and if that is you, take ownership already! Fix your life and get your shit together!

However, you could just be the one in the middle and that sucks and I am sorry. I feel for you. I didn’t ask for the trauma in my life at age 8. I didn’t ask for it at age 10. I didn’t ask for it in my teens or in my twenties. I didn’t ask for Cancer either, but I got it. Those fires happened and I had to be strong enough to put them out. Sometimes all on my own with no one there to help me. You might be on your own feeling like you have no one either. It’s okay. It sucks, but you will be okay. You will be stronger for it.

If you are lucky, you will find people who stand next to you while your fire is blazing and rub their hands together and say “Let’s get some marshmallows!” 

You might find people who are willing to help you put your fires out.

You might find people who aren’t afraid to get a little singed with you because they know they will be okay too. They won’t shrink back.

The people who can sit in pain with you and not try to FIX YOU and just love you for who you are, fires and all are the best and they are out there!

If you can’t find them, maybe it is time to become one!

~XoXo Trisha Trixie

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“It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing.
It doesn’t interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow if you have been opened by life’s betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain! I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it.
I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic, to remember the limitations of being human.
It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul; if you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see beauty even when it’s not pretty, every day, and if you can source your own life from its presence.
I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, “Yes!”
It doesn’t interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up, after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done to feed the children.
It doesn’t interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.
It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you, from the inside, when all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.”

― Oriah Mountain Dreamer, https://www.goodreads.com/quotes/9557-it-doesn-t-interest-me-what-you-do-for-a-living

Trixie Tuesday: When You Just Can’t

Somedays, you just CAN’T!

Yesterday, which would have been my Trixie Tuesday, I just couldn’t. Anything.

I canceled my Ukelele lesson, I canceled my appointments, I pulled the blackout curtains back to where they were, I turned the heating blanket back on and I literally crawled back into the covers and stayed there pretty much all day.

I watch the Bachelor Episode I missed.

I watched some other TV on Hulu.

I slept.

I fed the kitten I am pet-sitting and my cats. I tried to play with the kitten and the cats to get some joy in that. Nope. Back to bed, I went.

I don’t talk about my other issues often because I have been facing and dealing with my Cancer so much in the past few years that the other issues kind of got jumbled in all of it.

The issues I am referring to are:

my Bi-polar,

my Aspergers,

and now my Thyroid,

which does not play well with those other ones, by the way.

The Bipolar diagnosis has been up and down. One time they will say I have it and then they say I don’t. Another time they will say I have Cyclothymia, which is similar, but because I am able to get myself out of my depression, this is why they say I don’t have Bipolar.

The Aspergers and Bipolar are not a good combo because being an Aspie is hard enough. I have no filter. I have a lack of boundary understanding. (this is also a bipolar issue) Now add the Thyroid. As of late, they said I have Hypothyroidism/Hashimotos Auto-Immune Disease. That adds a layer of depression.

Then add my pain issues:

I have Degenerative Disk Disease in my neck and lower back.

I am always in pain. Always. I just don’t go around griping about it to everyone. I live at a level 6-8 pain level nearly all the time. I do what I can.

I am human.

I have hard days and I have good days.

I have days that I crash and just can’t. For years I did not speak about these days. Since having cancer twice I feel it is my duty to help others. I have been given the gift of empathy. I know what others are going through because I have been there myself. A LOT in life. I mean…A LOT.

A huge part of helping others is being open and vulnerable.

How many other people are dealing with things like I am and feel like they are alone?

How many others feel like no one understands?

How many others are happy most of the time, but when they are struggling or not happy their friends say “cheer up.” 

We need to be able to have our down days too!

Life cannot be all sunshine and lollipops all the time.

We must know the bitterness to enjoy the sweet.

I am here to tell you…it’s okay!

Some days…you just CAN’T. 

Take the day.

Just don’t take too many days. Make sure you pick yourself back up. Dust yourself back off. Pull up your bootstraps. Ride into the sunset. Tomorrow is a new day.

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XoXo ~Trisha Trixie

Group it Up: Facebook Groups

As a part of so many variety of ways I market myself, seek out vendors for my shows and advertise, I have had a number of people ask me for the information. This list is constantly growing and changing so in the future I will try to keep it up to date for you all but for now, I thought some of you might be interested in a sample in where I look for Vendor Shows to have a booth at, where I post about my upcoming shows and other Groups I am a part of for connections.

As a hint, if you keep in mind to search for the types of things you are selling or looking for, then you will get a great idea of groups to join and be a part of. These are only FB Groups today. I will share my Linked In and other groups I am a part of on another post.

Name of FB Page to share Event info Link for Fb Page
Vendor Shows For Consultants/Crafters/Vendors https://www.facebook.com/groups/569133136442864/
Mavens, Models , Moguls & More https://www.facebook.com/groups/348665345254715/
Vendor Shows for Iowa only https://www.facebook.com/groups/195528333913230/
Central Iowa Vendors https://www.facebook.com/groups/centraliowavendors/
Upcoming Gigs Shows https://www.facebook.com/groups/INTHEMOMENTENT/
The Referral Marketing Network https://www.facebook.com/groups/152891614779060/
Unprofessional Development https://www.facebook.com/groups/539930606070641/
DM Art Share https://www.facebook.com/groups/534760349897112/
Made by Hand Crafters https://www.facebook.com/groups/345351428815950/
Anime I Con https://www.facebook.com/groups/4120657746/
Iowa Music United https://www.facebook.com/groups/IOWAMUSICUNITED/
Handmade DSM https://www.facebook.com/groups/252601434868319/
DM Buy Sell Trade https://www.facebook.com/groups/278189078894997/
Craft/Vendor/Bridal Shows in the Midwest https://www.facebook.com/groups/201441339954362/
IA Vendors and Crafters Listing https://www.facebook.com/groups/150075625175063/?ref=notif&notif_t=group_added_to_group
Norwalk Buy/Sell/Trade Group https://www.facebook.com/groups/238394842919236/
Iowa Home Based Business Consultants Directory https://www.facebook.com/groups/218722131530674/
Illinois-Iowa-Missouri Direct Sales Opportunities https://www.facebook.com/groups/170439629760584/
Direct Sales https://www.facebook.com/groups/EliteDirectSales/
Direct Sales (DSNF) Promoting, Networking, Recruiting and Sharing https://www.facebook.com/groups/EliteDirectSales/
Promoting Direct Sales https://www.facebook.com/pages/Promoting-Direct-Sales/406299739489263
Des Moines Art Share https://www.facebook.com/groups/534760349897112/
I’m a VENDOR, I need a EVENT
Greater Des Moines Buy/Sell Trade Group https://www.facebook.com/groups/278189078894997/?ref=br_tf
Des Moines Ia Classifieds https://www.facebook.com/groups/northsidedsmclassifieds/
Strictly vendor events no advertising- Iowa https://www.facebook.com/groups/390955900993384/
Des Moines Business Mixer https://www.facebook.com/groups/tuesdaybusinessmixer/?ref=br_tf
Home Consultants & Small businesses of Iowa20+ https://www.facebook.com/groups/113079998782805/
DSM mom blog https://www.facebook.com/DesMoinesMomsBlog

Of course, as I said, these are jsut a few of the groups. Go into the Facebook Search area and Search

 

Vendor

Craft

Handmade

Direct Sales

MLM

Shows

(Then also look for groups with your local name in int)

De sMoines, Norwalk, etc..

 

Hoe these ideas help ya out!

If you have anything to add, let me know. I love to hear back from ya!

Until Next Time,

XOXO Trisha Trixie