Trixie Tuesday: When You Just Can’t

Somedays, you just CAN’T!

Yesterday, which would have been my Trixie Tuesday, I just couldn’t. Anything.

I canceled my Ukelele lesson, I canceled my appointments, I pulled the blackout curtains back to where they were, I turned the heating blanket back on and I literally crawled back into the covers and stayed there pretty much all day.

I watch the Bachelor Episode I missed.

I watched some other TV on Hulu.

I slept.

I fed the kitten I am pet-sitting and my cats. I tried to play with the kitten and the cats to get some joy in that. Nope. Back to bed, I went.

I don’t talk about my other issues often because I have been facing and dealing with my Cancer so much in the past few years that the other issues kind of got jumbled in all of it.

The issues I am referring to are:

my Bi-polar,

my Aspergers,

and now my Thyroid,

which does not play well with those other ones, by the way.

The Bipolar diagnosis has been up and down. One time they will say I have it and then they say I don’t. Another time they will say I have Cyclothymia, which is similar, but because I am able to get myself out of my depression, this is why they say I don’t have Bipolar.

The Aspergers and Bipolar are not a good combo because being an Aspie is hard enough. I have no filter. I have a lack of boundary understanding. (this is also a bipolar issue) Now add the Thyroid. As of late, they said I have Hypothyroidism/Hashimotos Auto-Immune Disease. That adds a layer of depression.

Then add my pain issues:

I have Degenerative Disk Disease in my neck and lower back.

I am always in pain. Always. I just don’t go around griping about it to everyone. I live at a level 6-8 pain level nearly all the time. I do what I can.

I am human.

I have hard days and I have good days.

I have days that I crash and just can’t. For years I did not speak about these days. Since having cancer twice I feel it is my duty to help others. I have been given the gift of empathy. I know what others are going through because I have been there myself. A LOT in life. I mean…A LOT.

A huge part of helping others is being open and vulnerable.

How many other people are dealing with things like I am and feel like they are alone?

How many others feel like no one understands?

How many others are happy most of the time, but when they are struggling or not happy their friends say “cheer up.” 

We need to be able to have our down days too!

Life cannot be all sunshine and lollipops all the time.

We must know the bitterness to enjoy the sweet.

I am here to tell you…it’s okay!

Some days…you just CAN’T. 

Take the day.

Just don’t take too many days. Make sure you pick yourself back up. Dust yourself back off. Pull up your bootstraps. Ride into the sunset. Tomorrow is a new day.

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XoXo ~Trisha Trixie

Pursuit of Excellence

There is this great little book called the Pursuit of Excellence and it helps you with goals and desires to become a better person. In finding this, I decided this year my quest is on The Pursuit of Excellence and these are my Challenges I am going to and have been taking on this year! I added them to my ASANA (Project Tracking Tool) and this way I can monitor my success and measure my statistics on how I am doing and have Asana as my own Accountability Coach!

This pamphlet encourages individuals to pursue excellence in their lives by setting goals and working diligently to achieve them. It includes several achievement challenges.

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POE: Spiritual Challenges:

  • Strengthen your spiritual testimony
  • Study Spiritual Work from Spiritual Leaders
  • Share Spiritual Quotes via Social Media to uplift and inspire others
  • Develop a personal file of teachings, articles, home, family & friend enrichment ideas, quotes, thoughts, anecdotes, and spiritual experiences
  • Keep a Personal Journal
  • Establish a habit of daily Meditation
  • Freely forgive others
  • Accept opportunities to speak or teach
  • Record memorable spiritual experiences or events in a journal

POE: Intellectual Challenges:

  • Pray to know what gifts have been given you, and use one of those gifts to bless others.
  • Study the words of leaders about strengthening families, marriages, and homes.Read a book that will increase your faith and strengthen you spiritually.
  • Learn about and develop a new skill or interest.
  • Improve your ability to communicate with others
  • Learn more about Aspergers and Autism
  • Improve skills for an occupation.
  • Improve your employment opportunities.
  • Complete a degree or certificate program
  • Learn another language
  • Learn to budget wisely and manage personal finances.
  • Develop a plan of preparedness for emergencies
  • Acquire greater proficiency in an occupational or homemaking skill (such as organizing, using a computer, sewing, mechanical work, cooking, or cleaning).

POE: Physical Challenges:

  • Develop healthy eating habits and patterns
  • Learn to cook healthy foods.
  • Develop a program of regular exercise.
  • Work toward healthy sleep patterns.
  • Improve emotional and mental health.
  • Improve your personal appearance or hygiene.
  • Create opportunities to be active with family and friends.

POE: Service Challenges:

  • Pray for inspiration about who needs your help each day, and act on your inspiration.
  • Welcome or befriend a new person
  • Volunteer for or lead a service project in your community.
  • Find ways to be a friend and serve someone who is elderly.
  • Write encouraging letters to others and send
  • Assist someone who needs help with their education.

POE: Character Challenges:

  • Overcome a bad habit or addiction
  • Improve your ability to manage time wisely.
  • Learn to be grateful, and express your appreciation.
  • Choose friends and companions who are earnestly seeking to maintain high ideals and standards.
  • Cultivate patience and tolerance for others.
  • Avoid comparing yourself to others, and learn to recognize when you are doing your best.
  • Beware of pride, and seek to be humble and teachable

If you would like to get your own Pursuit of Excellence Book Order here

For some examples click here